Beginnings....

I have been single since September of 2009. I was married for 7 years but we were together for a total of 11 years. My daughter was born July of 1999, and my son February 2002. I love my children more than anything else in the world. That is why I tried to make the marriage work for so long. But I realized that it wasn't working for me and I didn't want my kids to grow up with a depressed and suppressed mother. It took a lot of fighting and a restraining order to get away. It's been a tough battle, but things are finally settling down and I feel that I can finally begin this new life I fought for. I recently graduated with my Masters in Education back in May of 2011. It was one of my biggest accomplishments... I never in my wildest dreams thought I would obtain a Masters degree. The best part was when my children were there to watch me walk the line and receive my degree.

It is now September 2011, two years since I have been in this new world of single motherhood. There are times where I feel so grateful to have been blessed with such healthy, loving, amazing children, and times where I feel overwhelmed and flooded with guilt. Overall, it's not an easy feat to raise kids alone. Although the custody schedule is 50%, where it's 7 days on 7 days off, it's still quite a challenge since I do not stop being a mom when I don't have the kids on my 7 days off.

Right now I am trying to figure out what to do when I don't have the kids. The last 17 months was consumed with homework and writing papers, as well as teaching, and now that that is over, I am a bit lonely and lost. I lost several friends due to the divorce and I also went through a deep depression, isolating myself so I haven't made that many new friends yet. I have also tried dating a few times, but it turned out disasterous. More blogging on those topics because they are quite humorous.

So, I created this blog in hopes to help with filling in the time and to help heal that guilt I carry every so often. Enjoy....