Thoughts On Special Relationships

I can't believe the weekend is already here! My time with my kids has been wonderful and amazing. My apartment is a total wreck and disaster and I absolutely LOVE it! Being away from my kids has helped me realize that I would rather have a messy apartment and a messy life if it means having fulfilling relationships; especially with my children.

This week we did a lot of homework, Stacy had a science project on a plant cell; she had to create a 3D diagram of one. We used styrofoam. It was fun watching her make it. I bought the materials and allowed her to work on it herself. I assisted as little as possible. I guess I wanted her to take ownership on the project and to feel a sense of accomplishment when she completed it. Kevin is starting to warm up to me a little more and more. Our relationship hasn't been the greatest since the divorce. He blamed me. The poor guy confessed to me that he thought if he stopped loving me I would go back to his dad.... He took the divorce the hardest. So I haven't been the best mother when the divorce first happened, what I mean is is that I felt so guilty about leaving their dad, and then going to back to school full time I didn't get to see them as much, so I spoiled them and allowed them to get away with things. SO its been a tough road to get back on the discipline wagon and build solid relationships with them.... but it's coming a long.

I am now finished with school, I have a steady job and maybe in the future I will have that special someone to share my life with. But my main priority and purpose is to raise my kids in a way that they know they are loved, cared for and that they are special. Because they are!

One final note, it was quite a blast to have an apartment full of kids last night. My daughter had two of her friends spend the night, and my son had a friend spend the night. You have no idea how happy it makes me when I see my children enjoy childhood pleasures like sleepovers with their friends. They had tons of fun and because they did, I did! Life is good.