Thankful Indeed!

As I ponder about the many blessings I should be thankful for this Thanksgiving, I am humbled with how far I have come since becoming a single mother. I am still struggling in a lot of areas, but I am thankful that my faith has grown so that those struggles are no longer a defeating feat in my life. In fact, all they really are are just struggles. Nothing more! I can choose to let them define me and choose my way of life, or use them as stepping stones to keep moving forward. I am learning each and every day that letting go, and letting God is truly the secret to a contented life. Not perfect or easy, by any means, but at least there is peace and contentment. I do admit that sometimes I wish life was easier for me and that I can sit here and type about all the blessings in my life that I am thankful for, such as a home to live in, my health, my job, my children and my family. Yet, I find myself feeling tired for working so hard, and finding myself deprived and neglected. Of course I have a lot to be thankful for, and I am not at all trying to minimize the value of those blessings! But face it, I am tired! Tired of working for nothing! Tired of feeling powerless! Tired of failed relationships! Tired of not having contentment and joy and peace and love in my life! Its when I loose sight of Jesus when I begin to feel these feelings. Its when I start focusing on myself too much that I begin to loose any hope. Its when I give my power away to other people that I end up feeling empty and shameful! Life without Jesus is very painful! At least for me! Because people like me need Him!

So this year I am thankful that my worth and value do not come from other people or their misguided judgements on my life. I am thankful that this life is only temporary and that no matter how meek the circumstances, love is still the main culprit to the meaning of life. I am thankful that God through Jesus loves me no matter how I feel and how much I tend to wander away from Him. I am thankful for His gentleness, kindness and His loving ways! Thank you Jesus for loving me, even when I am not so lovable.