Not Strong Enough

God always knows when I need to hear something to uplift me and encourage me. Today in church our pastor was talking about the Lord's Prayer and how it should be lived rather than just reciting it. The portion he preached on was the very last bit of how the power and glory be forever God's. The biggest theme I heard through out was how we are to focus on God's kingdom rather than our own. That God's kingdom is where we find life, joy and peace. Our kingdom is broken and full of confusion.

The interesting part about today's sermon was talking about how God doesn't give us what we can handle. God always gives us more than we can handle so that we can depend on Him to pull us through. I can't tell you what a relief it was to hear that. For one, I have been feeling so overwhelmed with my situation, and I should be. For one, when I have my kids, I am raising them alone, and that is a daunting thought!! Second, my financial situation is so oppressing! I barely make enough to pay bills and groceries and yet I carry a superb amount of debt, it would literally make any financial advisor cringe! Thirdly, I don't have much support from my parents or family. In worldly terms my situation seems inconsolable, but in God's eyes its redeemable!

After everything I have been through, I have come to the realization that I am weak and I need God in my life in order to live! The message today was all about that. We are not strong enough to live this life according to joy, peace and love! We need a savior. We need prayer. We need to rely on God's guidance.

How great God's love for us is! To not let us dwindle in our little kingdoms when He is offering His Kingdom to us. Its interesting though, isn't it, how we don't want God's Kingdom. We fight God and oppose Him, and yet, He keeps redeeming us and offering us the greatest gift we will ever receive.

My words are failing me on how God is redeeming me and making me whole. I can't really explain how God is blessing me with a fulfilling life even though I have so little according to the world's eyes. I can't explain fully how God is teaching me to be a better a mom, friend, and teacher. I wish I could tell you just how God is working in my life and how He is giving me healing, joy, and peace! How do you put into words the redeemable love that I am experiencing?

All of this wouldn't be possible if I didn't tell God, "I am not strong enough to pull this off, I need you! Help!" In some way, I think God was waiting for me to say those words. God is answering and as the good word says, "God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above and beyond all that we could ever dare to hope, ask or think!" Wow, I can't wait to see what God has in store for me! :)