This is My Life

I am stressed out. I am overwhelmed. I am scared. What am I going to do if I can't pay my rent next month? What am I going to do?? I am way over my head. I have no one to turn to. And that is what hurts the most. I have NO ONE! I want to see God get me out of this. I do. I want to have faith that He will take care of me, but I am still worried, still scared, still hopeless. I may have to get another job, or a different job. A job that pays more. Which means less time with my kids and I already see less of them thanks to the custody schedule.

This is not the life I planned. This is not the life I want. When will I learn and get past my fears and just go after everything I need to so that I live the life I want? When? If I don't, then this is my life.