Rantings and other Non- Sense

Love M. Scott Peck! Heck, I like to say Peck... it rolls off the tongue nicely, don't you think?  "Peck!" Ha!  

I cannot begin to tell you how much truth this little quote from him holds. Go ahead. Read it again. 

EVERY time I feel this way, I end up searching and finding new ways to make my life better! Lately I have been feeling empty, unfulfilled and stuck in some sort of rut. Not sure why, but no matter. I think life is telling me to get off my complacent ass and do something! Something cool, and amazing! Not just your everyday normal crap that we do, but something that just might make a difference. I don't have a clue what that is, but hey, at least I am aware that something needs to change. 

I know that my life is in a bit of in between stage, and quite frankly it's a scary place to be. Sure I am certain of where I would like to be in the future, but considering how my life has been the last 35 years, I can't count on it. All I know is that I don't want to continue with the cycle of denial and pleasing the shit heads that don't even matter in the end. I guess it's time my voice be heard and I face my fears and take a leap of faith and be who I really am, say what I really need to say, and to love with abandon rather than with selfish motives. That, my friend, is a lot more challenging than it looks on paper. I am human and I am weak, but I am thankful for the reflective mind God gave me. 

See, what Peck says above is really the crux of how I, we, should live our life. Grateful for all the hardships and pain we endure. Why? Because wisdom is a direct result of suffering. Think about it. The greatest people we know, the most courageous, the one's who take our breath away and do something amazing with their life are the one's who endure the most and overcame! I can give you a list so long of people I know that suffered so much and yet had a wisdom and love that I sometimes envy. 

Many years ago I had this belief that joy and peace was a result of an easy, well established, predictable life. I thought that if I had what I wanted then life would be enjoyable. But as I grow in my faith, and let go of that false belief system, I realized that life is contrary to that belief. Life is better when we endure the pain and hardships it gives us. It gives us wisdom, hope, and an appreciation on how valuable life really is. I cannot begin to tell you how grateful I am for the lessons I learned through every disappointment, every heart ache, every suffering I had to endure. It was because of the uncomfortable, unfulfilled, and empty feelings that provoked me to search for better and truer answers. That to me is the journey we call life....

And then there are some days when I say screw the suffering and hardships, having some joy, fun and laughter is pretty damn important too! :-)

THE END!